Manifesting Miracles Using Collages and Your Handwriting

“Getting Out Of Depression – Part 3” will be posted no later than Tuesday. Something quite unforeseen happened here in the last 2.5 days and it’s been quite exiting.

Friday morning I was sitting on the couch and sorting through the books and magazines. I have agreed to be a facilitator for a local Bay Area organization helping underprivileged and low-income women to start their own businesses. I am exited to teach their first class and part of the first lesson’s curriculum is to do a collage of their business idea. My friends call me the Manifestation Queen because I have been into collages for years and have them all over the place in my house and in many different categories. I have a huge white collage hanging in my office that features my personal homes, vacation homes, my love life, my family life, my vacations, even the ideal dog I wanted. This white board is only for experiences that I want to draw to me.

I have two additional boards full of collages that are related only to what I think I am able to GIVE to the world, the reasons as to why I am here. Some of those statements and pictures are wishful thinking and character traits I am striving towards, others are qualities I already I possess and want to strengthen.

There are several other methods to how I manifest in collages, I have several books and binders and a big wooden box that looks and opens like a book where my collage pieces are contained until they make it onto a board or into a book.

I was browsing through the magazines to see if they would be fitting for me to bring to my first class when I saw a notebook that was given to me by a woman as a gift. I had tucked it under my coffee table for one of those special moments. Friday morning was that special moment, because it was cold and rainy outside, and I felt like manifesting some more. This time I decided to put a wish list together for specific things that I want to obtain.

One of those things is a 2-7 day vacation trip into solitude with the love of my life. He’s not in my physical space yet, but I’m obviously manifesting him now so that I’m ready for when he is in my life. One of my deepest desires has always been to spend 2 to 7 days alone in a cabin somewhere out in nature, with no electricity beyond some light, no TV or music, no microwave, only candles, games, books and lots of one-on-one time.

There I was sitting “reminiscing” about an event that will take place in the future, although it felt at that very moment as if it had already happened at some time in the past, even though it hadn’t.

Suddenly the lights went off. We had a power outage.

Like with every power outage we expect them to be taken care of by our skilled workers according to civilized standards (aren’t we spoiled). I was wrong. The power didn’t come on for the entire day. In fact, it didn’t come back for almost 3 days. By this time the temperature in the house had dropped to 51 degrees, the food was spoiled and I got tired of wringing out the drenched towels in the window tracks from the water that was entering in small gushes.

Yes, my “reminiscing” a 2-7 day retreat into silence came true all too soon! Only, my man was missing…the books and the games were present, but my beloved was not here to enjoy the little adventure with me.

Manifesting through the use of pictures, words, and your writing is a most powerful tool. I have always written my thoughts into a journal even as a little girl. Today of course I write differently, with intention, lots of intention and very careful with the words I choose; my collages change each year as I grow as a human being. The power of your manifestations is measured with the power that you put behind your words, your idealization process and your intense desire to achieve the thing you want. Pictures that symbolize something work like magic too.

As time goes by I will gladly share my manifestation successes, because there are many and they are absolutely mind boggling to my friends. I have gotten used to them and by now I actually expect them. I’d like to encourage you to get started and create your own collage. If you need help with it, simply send me an e-mail at corefreedom@yahoo.com or respond to this post and I’d be glad to help.

Getting out of Depression – Part 2

So there I was, laying on my death bed, waiting to die of lymphoma, barely able to crawl to the bathroom, stuck in a marriage that had rotted away a long time ago, and trapped in a body that seemed to have given up on wanting to live. Even my spirits had come to an acceptance that my physical life had come to an end; my little 2 year old daughter would not remember her mommy as she was growing up – I was forced to come to peace with that, and I did. I said: “Until death do us apart,” and I was about to bring glory to that promise and there was a sense of peace, in a sick kind of way.

I asked one last question: “Was this really what my life was all about?”

And it suddenly hit me. I don’t know how and why, and it doesn’t matter. The answer came in form of a little flicker if you will. Suddenly I just knew that this was not all my life was to be about. I had missed my purpose and I was not done yet, in fact, I was far from being done and I had a long road ahead of me.

A new sense of desire emerged. A desire to “find out” and “inquire” about life, to ask questions and to get answers. And I got them. The more I asked, the more answers I was given. The more answers I was given the clearer life’s directions became. It was glorious!

Here is the first thing I did, a little trick that may take a guts, and if you can muster up the courage to do this exercise and then tackle these things one by one, your life will change for the better without a doubt.

1. First make a list of all your fears.
2. Then number them with your worst fear being number one.
3. Make a decision to tackle each fear one by one, until that three-headed monster has been conquered.
4. Then emerse yourself in your fear until you love the thing you once fear most.

I personally decided to tackle the first three biggest fears rather than picking some of the smaller fears at the end of the list. And there is a reason for this, which I will share with you in part 3 of this article. It took me 1 year to overcome these three fears and then a miracle happened!

Stay tuned for part 3 of this article where I will not only share with you what my all time biggest fears were, I will also share with you how life changed so dramatically afterwards.

Getting out of Depression, Part 1

Looking out the window early this morning it was evident that the world in the San Francisco Bay Area has returned to “normal.” At least on the outside it looked that way. Traffic was backed up bumper to bumper by 6:15 a.m. and as I was taking my puppy out for his morning Nature call, people were walking to their cars to head off to work.

I was heading off to work at the suicide prevention hotline, where life for most callers continues to be anything but normal. Most people are under the impression that the holidays are a trigger for suicidal people and yet statistically the closer we get to Spring time is the most crucial time for most. It’s when everyone seems to break free from the cold weather and wake up from the hibernation stage that lonely and depressed people tend to do the opposite: fall deeper into a stage of sadness.

Callers are plagued by severe depressions usually ranging from loss of a marriage, lack of health or declining health, financial trouble and so on. There is one common thread amongst our callers: the overwhelming and overshadowing feeling of loneliness. No one seems to care. No one seems to understand. No one can relate. There is no one to call. No one calls them. Add to that mix declining health with a grim hope for improvement and possibly a spouse or partner who is now seeing someone else and we are dealing with a recipe for disaster.

Having been at a place where I felt devastated about having to wait for a diagnosis of lymphoma and putting my thoughts together for my Last Will, I can empathize with most people who are in a similar position. Feeling stuck in a marriage that seemed like a true prison to me and was unhealthy for both of us but not knowing or seeing that I had a way out adds to my understanding of people who are finding themselves in the same place.

I realized that everything seemed to have been taken from me by some unknown force (and yet there was no one to blame): my happiness, my marriage, my health, even my days were numbered. I had hit rock bottom. I had nothing else to lose…

It was during this time that I had an inkling of hope, a flash of “aha!” popped into my mind: “What if I missed something?” "What if there WAS a way out and I had just missed it?" I did miss something, the most important thing of all – my purpose, the very reasons for which I have come to be here. I did not know what that purpose was at that very moment, I just knew that I was unique (just like everyone else) and that I had come to create something that was reserved for me only. I didn't know what it was yet, but I trusted that it would be shown to me in due time. All I needed to know right then was that there was more than what meets the eye.

A new desire emerged.

Note: I was never diagnosed with a mental illness and this post and any other of my posts are not meant to be substitution for medical advice.

So what did I do and how did I overcome my illness and change my life?

Stay tuned for Part 2 of this post where I share with you simple strategies that helped me recover once and for all and turn my life around to be the happy and living the successful life that I am living today. I am exited to share with you some tips that may just help some amazing people out there find hope for themselves.

Why New Year's Resolutions Don't Work

A while back the Learning Annex asked me to teach another class on how to overcome procrastination. I remember thinking it weird that anyone who procrastinated would sign up for a procrastination class. Wouldn’t they just procrastinate signing up?

For those of you who have studied the art of setting goals, you may have discovered that most goals are never achieved and only 3 weeks after New Year’s day all resolutions are out the window. Why does this happen?

The reasons are endless; some delay goals, some forget about them, others change them and so on. The main reasons are different for each person; a faster explanation may be as follows: Most people are putting too many goals on their list and aim too high and then try to attempt the path on their own and without support. In addition, most people are too hard with themselves and at the slightest inkling of what feels like failure, they throw it all away. To add to this misery most people have a tendency to share their ambitious goals with those that have no business of knowing about them in the first place, because it’s as if they are just waiting in the bushes to pounce out and say: “Ha! I knew you couldn’t do it.”

There has to be a solution to changing our lives for the better – what is it?

First, go inside for wisdom and all answers. No, I’m not joking. We’re all different about how we look at goals and what they mean to us. One individual may have nightmares just thinking about a test, to another a test can be his greatest motivation to studying. For me personally the tighter a deadline and the harder the task, the more excited I get to achieving the goal. To others a deadline may be the most frightening thing ever.

For example, the most common New Year’s resolution of losing that holiday weight, or perhaps that of several holidays ago. No matter where you look you’ll find articles about how to lose that weight and what diet fad is new in Hollywood. In my humble opinion wanting to lose weight is the most useless and stupid New Year’s Resolution there is. It is cruel and rigid on your body, not realistic, causes overwhelm and is a pure path on putting your body straight behind bars. Prisons are meant to be broken out of, especially after those first 3 weeks in January are over and all New Year’s Resolutions have lost their appeal.

Perhaps trying this will work for you this year: Your goal this year is to always feel GREAT and to feel FIT.

Think about this, if you have one goal in mind and that is to feel great and fit, you have just stripped your scale of its rights. On the other hand, if you make it your goals to lose x-number of pounds then your scale becomes your say-all, your ruler, your king, your measuring stick, your boss. Instead let’s keep in mind that our bodies care for only the following; bodies want to feel cared for, fed with real food, satisfaction is a must, loved, caressed, hugged, paid attention to and used for what it was intended to (to move you around).

Are you getting it?


Order your body to take care of the weight loss part automatically. It was first created to work for you at its optimal capacity. The only thing you have to do is to pay attention to it, to listen to it, to love it and not to treat it right. Once your body feels that you are cooperating by showing it respect, it has no choice but to give you the same in return by bringing out the most gorgeous king or queen that you are already.

So this year make only one New Year’s Resolution: Respect yourself and your body, love yourself and your body, pay attention to your Soul’s wisdom instead of other people. Believe that you are protected by divine order. And the doors which open easiest for you in 2008 are the ones you are meant to walk through.

By the time you get to the end of 2008 and if you have faithfully held to this one desire, you will be in ecstasy, joy and amazement at how easy things fell into place for you this year. It’s pure magic indeed.

Wishing you a phenomenal year!